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I don't even know yet by BonezandGrim4ever I don't even know yet :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 1 0 Scared and alone by BonezandGrim4ever Scared and alone :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 2 2 Mother's Day Gift by BonezandGrim4ever Mother's Day Gift :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 2 0 Zombie Pony by BonezandGrim4ever
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Zombie Pony :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 3 0
Sad pony by BonezandGrim4ever Sad pony :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 3 0 why should I worry by BonezandGrim4ever why should I worry :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 3 0 Lets Kiss by BonezandGrim4ever Lets Kiss :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 0 0 Here are a couple (literally) buttons I made by BonezandGrim4ever Here are a couple (literally) buttons I made :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 3 0 comission by BonezandGrim4ever comission :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 2 0 Trees with aids by BonezandGrim4ever Trees with aids :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 1 0 I Hate Christmas by BonezandGrim4ever I Hate Christmas :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 1 1 Two Sides of the Same Coin by BonezandGrim4ever Two Sides of the Same Coin :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 2 1 Spooks by BonezandGrim4ever Spooks :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 2 0 Messed up the eyes... But I'm lazy by BonezandGrim4ever Messed up the eyes... But I'm lazy :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 2 0 Thanks for always being here by my side by BonezandGrim4ever Thanks for always being here by my side :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 2 1 Commision by BonezandGrim4ever Commision :iconbonezandgrim4ever:BonezandGrim4ever 0 0


Little storyteller by Yakovlev-vad Little storyteller :iconyakovlev-vad:Yakovlev-vad 1,628 176 Color Sketch (Patreon reward) by Yakovlev-vad Color Sketch (Patreon reward) :iconyakovlev-vad:Yakovlev-vad 680 64 First Kiss by Lopoddity First Kiss :iconlopoddity:Lopoddity 2,441 158 Studylight by Jowybean Studylight :iconjowybean:Jowybean 720 17 New Horizons Await by Jowybean New Horizons Await :iconjowybean:Jowybean 482 20 Attack! by Alannah-Hawker Attack! :iconalannah-hawker:Alannah-Hawker 416 64 Shaman by Alpenminuial Shaman :iconalpenminuial:Alpenminuial 111 7 My Little Anthro? by Lopoddity My Little Anthro? :iconlopoddity:Lopoddity 2,953 271 Let me show you everything I know  by OhHoneyBee Let me show you everything I know :iconohhoneybee:OhHoneyBee 752 182 Feeding forbidden by Yakovlev-vad Feeding forbidden :iconyakovlev-vad:Yakovlev-vad 647 70 Good soul by Yakovlev-vad Good soul :iconyakovlev-vad:Yakovlev-vad 3,233 242 Favorite place (Color Sketch) by Yakovlev-vad Favorite place (Color Sketch) :iconyakovlev-vad:Yakovlev-vad 2,373 161 Eroding Alone by aisu-isme
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Eroding Alone :iconaisu-isme:aisu-isme 113 6
Luna's future by Chepelitaxd Luna's future :iconchepelitaxd:Chepelitaxd 61 3 Young Love by Lopoddity Young Love :iconlopoddity:Lopoddity 3,896 268 peanut butter jelly time by MasterPlanner peanut butter jelly time :iconmasterplanner:MasterPlanner 76 22

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Scared and alone
I have been very stressed as of late, and I feel like I am being chased by some evil, this entity, this voice, that only tells me that I will fail, and that I have no one to support me.
I know I have people that support me, and I appreciate every single one of you. but i'm still scared, and there isn't anywhere for me to hide this time.

This entire graduation process has stressed me out to the point where I am having anxiety issues every day. I am terrified to be out on my own for the first time ever.
I act tough, but the sad truth is, I'm not. Not even close.

Everyone keeps telling me I have nothing to be afraid of but, why then have they spent so much time stressing on all the terrible things that they went through? It feels like they are trying to scare me... I know that they aren't, but sometimes I feel like they forget what it was like to be where I am now.

Sometimes, I wish I just had someone to talk to again, someone who would listen and not judge me, but still tell me when I am over reacting. I had someone like that once, but I did something stupid and now they want nothing to do with me, but I digress.

I know my friends and family have tried to comfort me... but none seem to understand my true fear...
I'm gonna tell you guys a secret, not so much a secret now, but the truth is, I am terrified of being alone. Being alone occasionally is nice, but the thought of being alone in a tiny apartment, with no one to hold me, and talk to, and just in general be there physically... I don't know if I can handle that.

I have always fought to be independent, but I need people, I need support, without it, I become depressed, and I start to doubt myself. That stupid thought in the back of my head always comes back "no one wants you" "you will never reach your dream" but I am sick of it. I am tired of letting my anxiety control me, so if any of you guys read far enough to see this, what's your biggest challenge in life right now?
I know that talking about this kind of thing seems scary especially on the internet, but know that I am here, for each and every one of you, just like you guys have been here for me.

Every comment, every note, every llama, gives me hope for my future, so let me repay all of you beautiful people with the same kindness you have shown me.

Thank you guys for sticking with me for all this time, even though I barely ever post because I forget to a lot. LOL
I love you guys, I really do, and thank you for all of the love and support.
I changed my thing to a turtle
I like turtles
Hey guys, if any of you guys know who ( ) is, please show her some support, she has been having a really rough time.
She has been a huge inspiration to me, and I really want her to know how much we all love her.


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Sydney R.
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
United States
Drawing has always been my passion, to think that I am finally living my dream, blows my mind.


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deepgrounduk Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2017
hi, and thanks for faving London's Wildlife, much appreciated :D (Big Grin)
Jorgipie Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the fav! Galaxy Cat [ICON2]
Fuzzy Angel by Jorgipie
CrescentMyst Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2017  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Awww, thank you for the points dear. q v q
BonezandGrim4ever Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You've earned them. :D
JACAC Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2017

h e l l o . Sidney :wave:

t h a n k . y o u . f o r . t h e . k i n d . :+fav: . =)


i . h o p e . m y . o t h e r . p h o t o s . a r e . a l s o . i n t e r e s t I n g

i f . y o u . g e t . t h e . c h a n c e . i . w o u l d . l o v e . t o . r e a d . a l s o . y o u r . c o m m e n t s


s m i l e . s p r i n g . j u s t . a r r i v e . =)=)

BonezandGrim4ever Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
There really is no need to thank me, you earned it. Thank you.
JACAC Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2017
s o r r y . Sydney =)
i . m u s t . =)=)
BonezandGrim4ever Featured By Owner Edited Feb 7, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I just wanted to thank all my watchers for all your support.
cemplonasaur Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2017  Hobbyist
Do you like chips?
BonezandGrim4ever Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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